Time to be a woman again! I haven't combed my hair in months, just been going around in my lil purple hat, wearing grey converse and carrying a big ol heavy bag.
Today I am washing my HAIR. And off to a birthday party where I will be wearing HEELS and carrying a HANDBAG...and I don't mind if I sound stereotypical :)
I have been a first time writer, director, editor, administator, and so much more all year, and it's been friggin fun. But I need to remember to be a human being, and a WOMAN too
What about you? :)xxx
Sunday, 19 December 2010
Saturday, 18 December 2010
Musical Inspiration
One of the things that has always struck me is how inspiration can make you do things that you didn't think you could. It can make you put aside all the fears and anxieties and just go for it.
I'm sitting here writing the first episode of The Glue, and wondering why everything is flowing so easily today, because it wasn't yesterday, or the day before. I had been watching, or shall I say forced to watch a cheesy film on True Movies, and thinking to myself "Eeeee, this is not helping!", and then all of sudden this amazing piece of music appeared from nowhere, and I'm not even joking, I picked up my pen and started writing and couldn't stop. Was a little robotic of me and a tad bit bizarre, but I felt inspired and visualised a particular scene and couldn't put my pen down. I love that feeling! It's really liberating to ride on the wave of inspiration, especially when and where you do not expect it.
Nevertheless, the music ended and I continued to write, but wanted me some more musical inpiration. So I googled a song that I had heard on 'Remember Me' with Robert Pattison. It was really hard to find because I didn't know the name, and it wasn't on the soundtrack. But I persevered and stumbled across it on YouTube. Yay!!!. Unfortunately it was only a short track, so like the freak that one is, I kept playing it on loop...and minus the repetitive, tedious, monotonous task, I felt INSPIRED.
Here's the link to the song, but it may not ring your bell, or float your boat the way it did mine :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aSlq7gDjBIo&feature=related
When I was working on the intro stories earlier in the year, I always seemed to play 'Breather Me' by Sia,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hSH7fblcGWM
which freakily is also one of the songs that was featured in the SAME film. I also used this when I was editing the episodes. I have no idea why I only edited to this song because it evokes a specific type of emotion, so the fact that I used it when writing Seth's Monologue, or editing a comical scene, was beyond me. But you know what. I was inspired!.
I've been so inspired by the people that I have met on this journey. The people that has been so selfless, funny, positive, creative, understanding, opinionated, open, supportive and everthing in between.
When you believe in something with every fibre of your being, it is indescribable, and when other people believe in it too, and express so much passion and creativity, there are just no words...apart from
"I AM INSPIRED!!!!"
I'm sitting here writing the first episode of The Glue, and wondering why everything is flowing so easily today, because it wasn't yesterday, or the day before. I had been watching, or shall I say forced to watch a cheesy film on True Movies, and thinking to myself "Eeeee, this is not helping!", and then all of sudden this amazing piece of music appeared from nowhere, and I'm not even joking, I picked up my pen and started writing and couldn't stop. Was a little robotic of me and a tad bit bizarre, but I felt inspired and visualised a particular scene and couldn't put my pen down. I love that feeling! It's really liberating to ride on the wave of inspiration, especially when and where you do not expect it.
Nevertheless, the music ended and I continued to write, but wanted me some more musical inpiration. So I googled a song that I had heard on 'Remember Me' with Robert Pattison. It was really hard to find because I didn't know the name, and it wasn't on the soundtrack. But I persevered and stumbled across it on YouTube. Yay!!!. Unfortunately it was only a short track, so like the freak that one is, I kept playing it on loop...and minus the repetitive, tedious, monotonous task, I felt INSPIRED.
Here's the link to the song, but it may not ring your bell, or float your boat the way it did mine :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aSlq7gDjBIo&feature=related
When I was working on the intro stories earlier in the year, I always seemed to play 'Breather Me' by Sia,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hSH7fblcGWM
which freakily is also one of the songs that was featured in the SAME film. I also used this when I was editing the episodes. I have no idea why I only edited to this song because it evokes a specific type of emotion, so the fact that I used it when writing Seth's Monologue, or editing a comical scene, was beyond me. But you know what. I was inspired!.
I've been so inspired by the people that I have met on this journey. The people that has been so selfless, funny, positive, creative, understanding, opinionated, open, supportive and everthing in between.
When you believe in something with every fibre of your being, it is indescribable, and when other people believe in it too, and express so much passion and creativity, there are just no words...apart from
"I AM INSPIRED!!!!"
Wednesday, 15 December 2010
Fear factor
Today, a well presented and composed young man said to me really calmly "Do you ever get the feeling you're about to be killed, like you're about to die?" For a split second I felt my life flash before my eyes. I never imagined something like that happening and I half expected him to pull out a gun, and then I just felt calm, frozen and still, almost as though I was surrendering to the inevitable. And then I realised, after a few minutes that it was a rhetorical question and that he was talking about himself and his own fears.
For the first few minutes I had been a bit numb and blocked out his voice, and my eyes were fixed on his hands and where they were tracing beneath his coat, and I was trying to work out possible manoeuvres, reflexes, dives, rolls, literally anything that I could do in the worst case scenario. I wasn't listening to him, and instead I was calmly working out my escape route. Then when I did listen, I realised that there was actually nothing to run from. I wasn't in any danger. And slowly I started to feel my brain functioning and blood flowing again. I stayed listening to him for the next ten to fifteen minutes. I didn't say anything, I just listened. And then I started to feel sad, guilty and embarassed about the judgement that I had made because he had asked me a question. Yes, a weird and strange question at that, but a question that was important to him. A question he probably asks himself every other minute or second of the day.
After listening to him. Really listening to him talk about how he feels ridiculed and misunderstood by people, I told him I had to go and went back home to compose myself before leaving to start my journey again. That situation reminded me of why I wanted to write The Glue. I want to look deeper into every day dynamics that can have perpetual effects on the ways in which we view each other, judge each other and interact with each other. In those brief minutes that I stood listening to a stranger, whose only way to reach out and communicate his fears, however unconventional to most, I learned and gained a lot. And in some way, maybe my silence, for those twenty minutes was all that he needed at that time. I think in a strange way, we both helped each other and I am sure it gave both of us a slightly different outlook on life even if the situation was an extraordinary one.
That is what I want to achieve through The Glue, and I think after today, I am more determined than ever.
Sometimes we all just need a bit of time. And as Seth says
"Time is all we have"
For the first few minutes I had been a bit numb and blocked out his voice, and my eyes were fixed on his hands and where they were tracing beneath his coat, and I was trying to work out possible manoeuvres, reflexes, dives, rolls, literally anything that I could do in the worst case scenario. I wasn't listening to him, and instead I was calmly working out my escape route. Then when I did listen, I realised that there was actually nothing to run from. I wasn't in any danger. And slowly I started to feel my brain functioning and blood flowing again. I stayed listening to him for the next ten to fifteen minutes. I didn't say anything, I just listened. And then I started to feel sad, guilty and embarassed about the judgement that I had made because he had asked me a question. Yes, a weird and strange question at that, but a question that was important to him. A question he probably asks himself every other minute or second of the day.
After listening to him. Really listening to him talk about how he feels ridiculed and misunderstood by people, I told him I had to go and went back home to compose myself before leaving to start my journey again. That situation reminded me of why I wanted to write The Glue. I want to look deeper into every day dynamics that can have perpetual effects on the ways in which we view each other, judge each other and interact with each other. In those brief minutes that I stood listening to a stranger, whose only way to reach out and communicate his fears, however unconventional to most, I learned and gained a lot. And in some way, maybe my silence, for those twenty minutes was all that he needed at that time. I think in a strange way, we both helped each other and I am sure it gave both of us a slightly different outlook on life even if the situation was an extraordinary one.
That is what I want to achieve through The Glue, and I think after today, I am more determined than ever.
Sometimes we all just need a bit of time. And as Seth says
"Time is all we have"
Sunday, 12 December 2010
Thank You!
I wanted to start this blog as a way of keeping in touch with everybody during this journey that started almost a year ago. More importantly I wanted to start this blog by saying 'Thank You' to each and every person who has given their time, energy, creative, support to this project, because without you all, this journey would not have even begun, let alone taken the paths, and turned the corners that it has and will continue to take.
The Glue started off as a simple idea about nine completely different individuals who enter an environment where they are forced to confront the prejudices, fears, issues and questions that they
have about themselves and each other.
But after putting it out there and seeing the support from so many different people, who wanted to get involved regardless of the fact that there was no budget, no payment and not really knowing any more than a paragraph about the project, it became so much more. It started to take shape and form, and each day, from each situation, circumstance and experience it is becoming something that reflects and represents more than just a script, or an idea.
These are early days, and there is something equally scary and exciting about that fact. I have such high hopes for The Glue, but I am more than aware of the hard work, time and commitment it has taken and will take. This experience to me, is like the concept of The Glue, and how people who have never met each other; people from different countries, of different ages, ethnicities, with different skills, backgrounds, and experiences, can come together and contribute to something because they want to, and because they believe in it.
Before this journey began I will be honest and say I had no idea how hard it was going to be. Everytime I feel tired, or stressed, or frustrated because of technical issues, I just remember how fortunate I am to have met and worked with so many amazing individuals, and how inspired I am, and that's all it takes to get going again.
I'll be writing this blg as often as I can, and sharing the weird and wonderful things that are happening as the project develops and progresses.
Thanks again x
The Glue started off as a simple idea about nine completely different individuals who enter an environment where they are forced to confront the prejudices, fears, issues and questions that they
have about themselves and each other.
But after putting it out there and seeing the support from so many different people, who wanted to get involved regardless of the fact that there was no budget, no payment and not really knowing any more than a paragraph about the project, it became so much more. It started to take shape and form, and each day, from each situation, circumstance and experience it is becoming something that reflects and represents more than just a script, or an idea.
These are early days, and there is something equally scary and exciting about that fact. I have such high hopes for The Glue, but I am more than aware of the hard work, time and commitment it has taken and will take. This experience to me, is like the concept of The Glue, and how people who have never met each other; people from different countries, of different ages, ethnicities, with different skills, backgrounds, and experiences, can come together and contribute to something because they want to, and because they believe in it.
Before this journey began I will be honest and say I had no idea how hard it was going to be. Everytime I feel tired, or stressed, or frustrated because of technical issues, I just remember how fortunate I am to have met and worked with so many amazing individuals, and how inspired I am, and that's all it takes to get going again.
I'll be writing this blg as often as I can, and sharing the weird and wonderful things that are happening as the project develops and progresses.
Thanks again x
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